Just missing you today

My sweet Erin,
The last two months have been filled with weddings, baby showers, and events that you would have enjoyed being part of. I feel so lonely for you when I have to go to them, thinking that it could have been you that the shower was given for; it could have been me that was the proud mother of the expectant mother. I will never see that. I will never hold your baby in my arms and be the proud grandparent and have your little ones in our home. You know we discussed that I would keep your babes if you worked. Now those babes won't ever be born. I won't get to see the likeness of you in them. I am so sad today. I just can't seem to get past this pain in my heart for all the things you would have been; all the things we would have shared in your future.
I know I have to go on for David and that's what keeps me going. It's the only thing. I hope God will bless him with children to be my grandbabes to soothe my aching heart over my beautiful daughter who I was and am so proud is mine.
Now you are with our Heavenly Father. I believe He just loved you so much He thought you were too good for this earth. I'm sure He has wonderful things for you to do there where He is.
I miss you with every breath I breathe. But, don't worry, the same Father who is caring so tenderly for you is helping me to live every day without you by my side here. I do feel your sweet spirit sometimes. I see a little buterfly or dragonfly and think that you sent it to make me feel better; to let me know that you are o.k. and soaring with the angels in a wonderful place we haven't even begun to know.
Just wanted to write how I am missing you.
Love never dies!
Forever your mama
June 9, 2007