Missing you today

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My dear sweet daughter, Erin,
The wind blew fiercely today. I thought of you so much all during it. The wind is a type of the Spirit and I wondered if you were there, too, as it blew all around me. I visited your grave once again, knowing that you are not there--just your body. David and I heard that song that I felt you sent my way, "Wish you were here" by Mark Harris. It starts, "Don't cry for me, for I'm finally free". And you are. It is us who are bound to this earth now, but you are free--free to soar--to visit worlds unknown to us--to be with Jesus and be filled with His peace and love every moment of time. I miss you. I expected you would be here for me when I'm old and gray. Well, the gray is coming on fast now as I sorrow over your leaving us after only 23 years. Daddy is sad all the time. He hurts for his girl who had to leave too soon while he was still loving you so much. David thought he was through with the grieving. And then he happened to see the little movies you made on your digital camera that I had saved on the computer he uses. And he cried. He misses you. He said you always hugged him and loved him so. He misses that. He said today not many people have to go through what he has--losing his precious sister who loved him so and who he loved so. We're surviving. That's about all we are doing. We are trying to be here for each other, but it is with very sad hearts. We know we will see you again. But we think it will be a very long time. Jeff came by yesterday to hunt. I didn't see him, but I miss him being in our family. I understand him separating himself so he can heal enough to go on living. But I know he loves you still and always will. Just as we do. Love never dies.
Missing you again today, my dear child.
Mama